OK- If I don't have enough drama and sadness in my life right now... my daughter, Devin, choked on a piece of ice about 2 1/2 weeks ago. She was eating a cup of crushed ice, and a large piece got lodged in her throat and Jack had to do the Heimlich to unlodge it. Thank God we were sitting right there! Needless to say, it scared her (and us) badly. She slept with us the first couple nights and I thought she was doing ok. Not so.
Over the last 2 weeks, she has had nightmares, wet her pants twice, and has increasingly had anxiety over eating solid foods. It has been a nightmare. I tried calling my pediatrician, but they want to refer to a behavioral specialist. Jack is fairly admament about not taking her to a specialist. I am having great anxiety over this. Jack says I am like Elliott and Devin is like ET. I FEEL her pain and anxiety. She is a part of me and I have great difficulty if she is not doing well. She takes forever to eat, only eats small bites, soft food or liquids only, and chews forever before swallowing. She has had quite a few tantrums these last 2 weeks. We went out and bought her lots of soft food options, have to sit with her when she is eating, and we recite "positive affirmations" with her before eating.
Jack and I don't see eye to eye about taking her to a specialist. I will give it a few more days - but then I am taking her. It causes me great stress and I have trouble concentrating at home & work. I am having trouble sleeping and many times feel like crying. Part of my sadness is still because of my dad's death. I am still very sad about it and having a hard time dealing with this too. I want my happy girl back!!!
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